Will I ever get a break..?

Hello all. My life has always been very busy and full of drama. There is always something going on. Be it fights, illness, annoying children or just plain old havoc. I do not know why my life is like this but I have never known it to be any other way. Does anyone really have a drama free life? or is this something everyone goes through? Well I really do not know. As much fun as chaos can be it is dreadfully tiresome. I never know what to expect on a day by day basis. Will some random crazy event usually reserved for sitcoms and day time television struck me in my wake or will I shuffle around paranoid that some crazy event will infact happen.

Maybe chaos is my calm. To be honest with you I would never exchange my life for that of a quite vanilla life. I guess I will just have to get on with life. Thank you and Goodbye.

An open Letter to my Abusive 'Father'

It has been a few years since me and my family left you and quite honestly it has been the best decision we have ever made. You had the chance to be a good father figure, but you blew it away. Now after all this time you are still trying to abuse the power you believe you still have over me. You are still attempting to contact me. Do you really think I am that still that naive child that cowered away from your fists. That still held a small belief and hope that you really did love us. I know now that you never did care for us at all. While you were wasting away your life on drugs and alcohol, we were trapped in a cold house, starving and isolated from any form of humanity. To scared to speak out against you. Leaving us for days at a time as I pretended to be strong for my sister, As i sobbed my eyes out hiding in my room. I worked hard to protect my sister. I stole for her, I held her while you screamed. I however failed to keep her safe. You still turned her into a frightened little girl, scared of the world. For that I will always despise you for. Hurting me I can put up with but to hurt her is truly despicable. Thankfully she has grown strong. She is a warrior and she refuses to be defeated.

I guess the only reason you are attempting to contact me is because you are weak. You are grasping at straws. You no longer have the power you used to have. You are nothing. You are alone and you always will be.

See you in Hell bitch.